This week was the first week where I consciously decided not to be accountable. It was the last week of exams, I was cut off from the internet, and the stress just kept piling up so I dismissed the process. I also decided not to go to my weigh-in today, because I want to correct the damage from this week. I will make a concerted effort of going next week, though. I feel mostly like I’m getting back on track, so I guess all is well.

There are only 5 weeks and 5 days until I go overseas, and I am freaking out a little. I have 40 days and the average processing is 25 days for a visa. I haven’t received all the documentation I need, and I am truely trying to chase that up. On the other hand, I’ve finished exams, and when I’m not freaking out about visas, I have remarkable amounts of spare time on my hands. I’m going to the gym more and I’m trying to get at least an hour of non-intentional exercise in by doing things like going bowling or kicking a football around.

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. I went shopping the other day, and bought my first ever size 14 dress. Granted, it’s an elastic top, very summery and loose cut — but at the same time, it was a size 14 from a real-person shop! That’s inspired me, in part, to try to be more aware of what I’m eating.

Exam time, as most students can attest, is generally quite difficult on any sort of eating program. My old method used to be something like this: eat sugar in order to get a ‘high’, and drink caffeine to maintain it (or coke, which had added sugar for a bonus high). This exam block has been hard — some krispy kreme donuts and a much-regretted trip to KFC — but after some quick-footing I’m back on an even keel for the week. And I’m concentrating on getting all my water this week, on eating salads and vegetables and just changing what I’m doing. It’s hard, but it feels good. And I like that I can sit back at the end of the night and go, “Actually, all I snacked on today was water?”

Of course, on the off chance I need snacks, I have some: 1pt Dove dark chocolate (which just hits the spot!) and 1.5pt ‘Lite’ Buttered Popcorn. I’ve also got yoghurt, which I’ve stopped eating, and some other sweeties. But I just don’t feel the need for them at the moment.

And one of my friends just turned me on to Barocca, which I’ve never taken before yesterday. I had some just after lunch, and while it wasn’t like I was pinging off the walls, it did stop that (previously inevitable) 3pm slump.

I guess we’ll see the results next time I weigh-in, which I don’t think will be Saturday (exam at 9am. Ouch.)

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So, this site is almost finished! I’ve got the progress and about pages up, and am a little impressed with myself, if I do say so. There are definately things I still need to iron out, and I’ll be adding progress information in a while — the numbers, that is. And I’ll add some more to the about pages — information about the site and the freeware I’m using (e.g. for the photos, for the fonts, the stock photos…the list goes on.)

But I’m pretty happy because I tend to use this site at night and work on it instead of snack. Which makes me feel like I’m doing something productive, instead of buggering around. Not quite as productive as, say, doing study, though.

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I gained 0.2. Not very pleased with myself at the moment. I’ve been hovering for so long that I’m beginning to wonder if I’ll get there.

So this week, I’m going to refocus. I think maybe that I’ve been focusing so much on hitting 89.9 that it’s become a kind of barrier. So instead, I’m going to focus on getting to 85.0. I’m hoping that the long-range focus will help. I’m not that far away — 5 kilos is completely possible, so…

Will try, anyway.

Current Stats
Current Weight: 90.2
Loss/Gain This Week: +.2
Total Loss: 10.1

Christmas Challenge
Weeks To Christmas: 5
Amount To Lose: 10.3

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Frustration, frustration, frustration.

I’ve been hovering at 90kg for the past 3-4 weeks (although to be fair, always going smaller.) 91.0, 90.5, 90.2. I made a concerted effort this week to stick to it all, and my personal scales were registering 89.x’s for most of the week. Come last night, I went to a dinner party and ate too much — probably over my daily limit, but I was partly expecting that, and had saved a significant amount. It was just the sheer volume of food. So I go in for my weigh-in today, hoping against hope that I’ll have lost .3 to get me over the line — or more, since that’s what I’d been registering all day. I step on the scales and: 90.0. I’m pretty certain that my body is taunting me here. All I want — so desperately is to get to that 89.9 so that I can focus on my next goal. This weekly shuffling about is so tiresome.

But the other choice is to give up and never get to 89.9, so I’m going to do what I can — more, in fact, because at this point I’d rather smash 89.9 out of the ballpark and hit 88.x — it’s that much closer to my next goal, and I’d love that.

Also, the 10 in 10 challenge is officially over — I believe I ended on a loss of 3.8, which wasn’t amazing but it was still less than when I started.

Current Stats
Current Weight: 90.0
Loss/Gain This Week: -.2
Total Loss: 10.3

Christmas Challenge
Weeks To Christmas: 6
Amount To Lose: 10.1

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