In the good way! Last night was the college ball (forgot about that in my meal planning) and it was lots of fun! Just tallied up the points and it comes to about 45, oops. But I ate a lot during the day — Fish and Chip Friday always seems to be my downfall, but that’s okay. At least I can plan for it.

But, yes, I went to the college ball and had a wonderful time. I wore my birthday dress, which is still a bit tight, but I think I drank too much because I didn’t want to eat anything anyway. Everything just felt really heavy and crappy…I ended up giving away all of my food — entree, main, dessert and bread roll after about 2 bites of each. It tasted good, I just really didn’t want it.

Probably a first for me, haha.

Anyway, this week is the first time in a long time that I’ve actually tracked for a full week, so I’m going to update my progress page.

Me at the ball. Cheers!

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Nope, not under 80kg, sadly. Quite the opposite; it’s been a slow and horrifying upward climb since I got back to college, although I think it’s just the period of adjustment where I have to learn to eat responsibly when I’m not in charge anymore, which is the core culprit of the upward climb.

I am however slowly making this adjustment, which is the reason for the post. Today is the first time since I moved back into college that I am under my points! It’s taken 3 weeks and quite a large amount of stress on my part, but as of now, I am on 17.5 points! The kitchen is closed and I want to be under so badly, I don’t mind what I have to skip for it.

I think the main thing has been realising that I need to cut out the empty carbs for lunch. Partly because they give me the 3pm slump, but also because they seem to be the ones gobbling up my budget. Today, for example, was Spinach and Ricotta quiche with a salad on the side…very satisfying, fully allowed, no guilt…and I didn’t get hungry. Dinner was grilled fish with lemon and corn and brocolli on the side…so between the salad and quiche and that, I think I’ve even hit my daily vegie allowance. Now all I need is 500ml of water and I’m all in!

Menu Plan for the next few days:

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1. It is not your fault for eating poorly today. You made the best choices you could when lunch was deep fried fish and dinner was pizza or cream-sauce pasta. Sometimes you just can’t fix that.
2. You will not just go backwards and gain weight. You will continue the downward trend — it may be harder, but it won’t be impossible.
3. Do find the courage to talk up at food committee meetings. You are likely to go insane if you don’t eat some vegetables soon.
4. Do exercise.
5. Stop stressing. Everything will be fine.

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So I, or more accurately, my attitude, went AWOL. I sure didn’t give it permission to bugger off but it did. These last few weeks have been hard for a number of reasons:

1) Back at college and readjusting to living with people for every meal. You know how when you go out with old friends, you get together and you eat more than you normally would? Just like that…but for every meal.
2) Not being settled in properly. Fridge wasn’t available and healthy snacks were not go.
3) Needing to travel. I left some stuff in Queensland when I came down to Sydney, so I had to go up and then drive down — healthy snacks did not exist.
4) College food. For instance, lunch today was chicken and chips, or deep fried spring rolls and fried rice. Mmm…healthy, right?
5) Menu planning. As in, there is none, because I don’t have the menu yet.
6) My wisdom teeth are coming in and my mouth hurts. Quite a bit actually. I’m all nasal and sinus-y because of it, and there’s constant pressure because too. I realised today I’ve been comfort eating because of it…like when you’re sick and you just want to eat something easy.

These are all valid reasons, and they have gotten in the way in the past few weeks. But at the end of the day, they are all valid excuses. I know where I want to be: in a bloody bikini for this summer. And I know it’s not going to happen unless I knuckle down. As of tomorrow, I will do my best to make great decisions as much of the time as possible. I want to be a size 12. I want to be in the 70’s. I want have lost 21kilos…

So consider me back on the wagon. I am refocused, and I will make a much greater effort to post here (and on the WW boards, since I’ve been neglecting those girls.)

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