To distract myself, I’ve been listening to Shauna and Carla’s podcast, Two Fit Chicks. I’m currently up to the third podcast which is about goals. How convenient, I say, because I need to distract myself from the desire to snack and just today I wrote out my goals and rewards for them.

I’ve learnt, over the past 2 and a half years of weight-loss, that I suck at goals. If I give myself a goal or a deadline, I will not make it. Ever. It just doesn’t work! Particularly time-orientated ones, they are horrendous and guaranteed to derail me until at least a week after the time I wanted to achieve the goal.

I’ve also learnt that it takes me forever to lose weight, simply because there is only so much that I’m willing to give up. I flat with my two best friends; we often invite people over for drinks; a vast number of our friends are college kids; my lifestyle is not particularly conducive to weight loss. That doesn’t mean it can’t be done, just that I have to be able to concentrate on it, and there are times (our tradition of celebratory chinese, for example) where I choose not to be so strict…particularly since this is a plan for life.

So I’ve only made three goals. These three goals are very small. These three goals have very large rewards attached to them, and these three goals have no time limits. Because for me, there’s no pressure, I don’t have to focus on the ‘big picture’ — I focus on the little picture and the big picture will take care of itself.

So here they are!:

• 85kg - Get a haircut.
• 82.5kg - Manicure.
• 80kg - Massage.

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Okay, I’m done. I’m still not feeling 100%. Still tired and still with a runny nose, but my head is ready to get back to it. I’ll have to take it slowly, but it’s better than nothing, right?

I’m really going to need to crack down. The few days since I got back on Monday have been ridiculous. I’ve just eaten whatever I wanted….mostly crap. What can I say? I sook when I’m sick.

But I’ve had issues lately with feeling like I’m just all over the place — in everything, not just weight loss. Mentally, physically, emotionally, it’s like pieces of me are scattered everywhere and as a result, I’m forgetting things, I’m ignoring my goals, I’m just slacking and not really getting where I want to go. So, I’m going to sit down and work out what I want and what I’m going to commit to — and why.

So, here’s what I want.

1) Exercise 7 times a week, judgement removed. I don’t care if I run or walk or just do 10 push-ups, once a day I will do something as a reminder of what my end goal is. And record it! Running Ahead is my favourite website for that, I love going back to the calendar and being able to see just what I’ve done.
2) Track without judgement! What a smug b*tch I was, just three posts ago. I forgot to track while I was away, just completely slipped my mind, and then being the idjit I was I didn’t want to track from half-way through the week. …Yeah. As of tomorrow, I’m back to tracking hardcore. Everything.
3) Plan my meals. I love cooking! But when was the last time I actually tried to cook something new? I need to know what I’m going to cook and when, need to buy it and actually do it. Because if it’s not in my house, I will end up eating cereal. That’s the kind of cook I am.
4) Drink water. I’m a water person anyway. But while I was away, there was juice. And so now I need to detox back into being a full-time water person, rather than guzzling all the milk in the house.
5) Post as often as possible. I can’t promise that I’m an everyday person, although when I’m really concentrated and focused, I can even be a twice a day poster. But I love reading blogs and interacting with others.
6) Give up alcohol for a month! I know, a bit risky for me. At 21, everyone around me is a drinker, but I’m just going to give myself one month and see how I go.

So I guess for me, that’s about it. I’m not going to commit to anything unrealistic like giving up sugar or coke (!), since I am an addict and I do limit these anyway. I am aware that I am a very lazy loser…if it isn’t simple, easy-ish changes, then I just won’t stick with it. And I’d like for these things to become habit.

Hope everyone else is well and hasn’t let easter get them down. Apart from Christmas, it’s the most deadly holiday, since the whole world (it seems) engages in a conspiracy of gluttony. But it’s over now, rejoice!

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So, I’ve been playing around with these for a while, but I’ve never written them down, so why not do it now?

Current Weight: 86.3

1. 85.5 — A BMI of 29.9, and therefore no longer obese!
2. 85.3 — A loss of 15kg.
3. 80.8 — Halfway (start weight = 100.3)
4. 79.9 — 20.4kg and under 80.
5. 77.6 — 10% of 86.3.
6. 75.3 — 25kg
7. 74.1 — Halfway between current weight and goal weight.
8. 71.5 — Three-Quarters.
9. 71.0 — In the healthy BMI Range
10. 69.9 — Under 70!
11. 65.3 — 35kg.
12. 62.0 – GOAL.

In other news, I’ve realised that half my problem is that I find it hard to follow my meal plan if I actually have to cook lunch myself then and there — it is much, much easier for me if it’s already made and I either a) eat it, or b) heat it up and eat it. I’ll need to remember this for the future, because it does affect how I eat. Sigh.

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