Three weeks into the Scottish Experience, and I’ve only just moved into my apartment. So I’m going to excuse myself for not sticking to what I wanted to do, because when you’re at the mercy of a) the student cafeteria or b) someone else’s cooking, there’s just not much that can be done to improve the situation.

However, I have just moved into my flat. Mine. I feel so grown up. I’ve never lived on my own, never taken care of things that are important and everyday things. And doing it now makes me feel more responsible. So, this is what I’m planning to buy tomorrow at the Supermarket, to be able to get me through the first week or so, but also to set me up for Cooking For Myself (a big step).

• Tinned tomatoes
• Basil
• Olive oil/spray
• Tinned tuna
• Pineapple juice
• Carrots
• Eggs
• Rye bread
• Tomatoes
• Spinach
• Low-fat ricotta
• Pizza bases
• Low fat cheddar (grated)
• Salt
• Tea
• Coffee
• Sugar
• Garlic
• Sausages
• Bacon
• Bananas
• Green beans
• Puff Pastry
• Tomato paste
• Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream

I’ve been eating lots of crap, yes, but I’ve also been walking a lot and doing a lot of exercise. On Saturday I went to a Ceilidh, which is a sort of Scottish folk dance. It was amazing — so much fun, but my legs have been sore for days. I love that I walk more here, it feels fantastic. And I’m involved in a run soon!

I’m kind of sick, but I’m hoping that I can fix that soon. It’s not too bad now but I think I should coddle myself for a few days. I’d rather do that than ignore it, because it’s much harder to get out and eat well and do exercise when it feels too hard to get out of bed.

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So following a thread in the forums, I’m going to write a list of everything single thing I can come up with:

Things I Love About Myself

• My sense of fair play
• My ability to have a joke
• My hair. (Because it’s nice and fine and always soft.)
• My eye colour. (Blue)
• My skin (because it’s nice to me and is very rarely splotchy.)
• The fact that even at my largest, I had a waist.
• The way I try to see the best in people.
• My loyalty.
• My breasts (*Ahem.* A little revealing, but true.)
• Three dark freckles on my collarbone that remind me of Orion’s belt.
• My passion
• My dedication.
• My skill with make up.

…That’s all I can think of for now. But it’s enough to feel good.

Today I didn’t get up for breakfast, and I’ve realised how much harder it is to get each of my goals (Vegetables, Calcium, etc). And it made me realise how much my focus has changed. Yes, I still really, really care about losing weight (obviously), but more than that, I’ve broken my day down into little itty bits: have I had enough calcium? Vegetables? Water? Am I under my points? And so I can take it day by day and honestly believe at the end that I’ll lose weight. Ka-ching.

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Things I will keep in my fridge when I am back at college:

• Diet Vanilla Yoghurt
• Diet Coke
• Tomato and Pumpkin Soups
• Some Low-Fat Milk
• Drink Bottles of Water
• Carrot Sticks (for Snacks)
• Red Apples

This is so that I can manage what I eat while at college, can make sure that I get my 5 vegetable serves each day, and can get to my 20kilo goal by Christmas. Because only I can control this, so I have to be a big girl now, and take control, rather than make excuses.

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